Winter, in Spring

凍結
我最愛的冬天
還是春天?

插再削鉛筆機上的鉛筆
剛剛喝完熱牛奶還沒洗的杯子
鋼琴上左邊數過來第二個陷下去的fa

三點了還沒有該有的睡意
自以為浪漫
取而代之的是一陣陰森

這麼說來不去找個人一起睡不行了
告辭!

spin, as a snail

is it a dream?
daydreaming, night dreaming, i prefer daydreaming
fantasy is better than worry

internet, it's more complicated than my mind
is that real u? i have no idea
it's definitely not real me
it's a depressive me

ah, in front of u, i'm also a depressive me

people spin under lamps
i spin in my dream, like a snail

STOP!

sleepless at midnight, with a cold

what a proper song!
my headache, my running nose, my cough,
even my tiredness can't stop me thinking about you

思念是一種很玄的東西 如影隨行
無聲又無息出沒在心底 轉眼吞沒我在寂寞裡
我無力抗拒特別是夜裡 想你到無法呼吸
恨不能立即朝你狂奔去 大聲的告訴你

it's different from usual
it's the same as usual
what a conflicting Aries with dual personality!!

are u in the same boat, momo chan?
do u also think about someone and not be able to fall sleep at midnight?
are u also waiting for his call all the time no matter day and night
and are u always restraining from dialing "call"?

maybe u are not what i said
neigher am i

who is like this?
let me know

my boredom brings me vividness

好心情
大概是來自於即將到來的解脫吧
再加上每個孩子都愛的過年
以及電視上夢幻的愛情故事
還有來自各國擁有自我特色的朋友們
the most important reason surely is...
NARCISSISM, my serious desease

in a good mood
we don't usually say much

HEEHAA----

L-O-S-E-R

almost in tears when the picture bumped out
出乎自己意料
崩潰自以為的冷靜
壓抑,似乎反彈的更高
surprising, 思念
讓我像是一個自戀狂看著自己的照片一樣

12345 almost 6 months
purposive oblivion + gradual change
it's like you walk east and i walk west
getting futther and further

a poor person with poor self-esteem from a poor country
falls in love with
a calm person without a heart from a prosperous country

HUG ME when u see me next time
ok?

happy old year

thinking fondly of my 2004

1 January
5 January
16 January
5-8 March
21 March
8 April
17 April
23 April
25 April
1 May
8-12 May
14 May
18-19 June
20 May
21 May
22 May
26 May
29 May
6 June
26 June
21 July
22 July
23 July
21-22 August
12-21 September
15-17 October
6-8 November
27 November
25 December
26 December
27 December
31 December

all in my diary and my mind

who is going to fill up my next diary?

happy old year
yes, it is

again and again and again and again...

the so-called heartless individual

get amused again, get defenseless again
get a hope again, get a disappointment again
get a conclusion again, get a confusion again
get mad again, get calm again
talking rubbish again, ending in silence again
out of mind a again, come back the extremely weak senses again
online again, offline again
make a decision again, break your own word again
your fault again, my fault again

who is the angel, and who is the devil?
who is talking now?

i'm tired of everything
mostly is myself

累.厭.棄.泣again

ok, when is the next repeat coming?

your life, my life, thier life

慢慢地 我進入了你的生活
但你並不知情
然而 我也不知情
一切都是那麼的下意識

我病了
這股昏沈卻讓我驚醒
我活在你的生活中!!!
你的他們,同時也是我的他們!!!

我幻想著我是你
我幻想著幫你做每個決定
每頓早午晚餐
每個電視節目
每件新衣
每天出門的路線
每天上床的時間
跟每個人打招乎的方式

其實並非如此
我只是熟悉一切罷了
熟悉你的每個決定
熟悉你的每個動作
熟悉你的說話語調

所以我幻想著一切

having somebody else's life might be much easier
i totally agree with you

i'm observing their life every moment
it's my life

shining man is not shining anymore

it's about something you don't get or you can't own

there is no sparkle from your eyes, shining man
there is no freshness on your face, shining man
there is no brilliance in your smile, shining man
even no smile, shining man
no smile? or no smile for me?
not shining? or not shining for me?

shining man is dancing out of my world
i see your shadow but not soul
maybe it's my problem
my eyes, my heart, my world, my carelessness, my sleepiness
then why am i sitting here?

i'm always being honest to myself
but right now, i'm really confused

shining man, will you still be shining when the next time i see you?
take care of yourself, that's the only sentence i can tell you

your unconcern

what am i waiting for?
what am i seeking?
what am i expecting?
不過就是一點文字,遙遠的文字
i'm oversensitive taking them as hints
but they never show up
漫無目的的箭頭在充滿符號的框框內遊走
怎麼也走不出去
只有自己陪著自己自戀下去

藉著別人的情緒,當作自我分隔的藉口
不想提醒自己,更不敢洩漏自己
表‧裡‧不‧一
誰看的出來文字背後的掙扎
文字不就是為了被閱讀
not everyone's words are full of hints
not everyone like u
what are u expecting?

your concern,something i lost,or never got


dear far away,please read my words if you've cared

dizzy life

amusement parks make people dizzy
i'm not young anymore, too grown to be willful
arrogance makes people dizzy
i hate this kind of people however i'm one of them
country life makes people dizzy
i need to breathe, to drug the dirty air in my city

腦袋是空的
分飛到世界各地
我不在我身上而在地圖上

what do you want?
my kiss? my company?
my words? my humbleness?
and what do i want?
YOU SUCH A HUMBUG!!!

想?
you never know
別想了...
maybe u never think about it

i hate my life during 9:30am to 5:30pm, like now
i'm in a world which i'm not in
where am i??? and where the hell are u???

IT'S ALL ABOUT YOU, YOU, AND YOU!!!

what a damn dizzy post

也許

non-responsibility,freedom,proudness,relaxation,playing around
single nobles own these

在此分享一首歌,Linda的<也許>

經過那麼久以後 你依然如此灑脫 我只能跟在身後
不問你是否愛我 也不敢多要求 深怕你不再聯絡
還是同樣的結果 你終於說出了口說 你並不適合我
我知道那只是你的藉口 你不想傷害我 卻又傷得我徹透
你要求一片天空 請我還給你自由
卻沒想過 我從來不曾住在你心中
也許我早該看透 我們不會再有以後
哦 也許 也許有一天你也會寂寞

也許,也許有一天你也會寂寞
that was just a wish, a greedy wish
時間把感覺沖淡了
淡到,這首歌也不過是一首歌
但還沒淡到,照片只是照片

dear past, can you get it?

japanese goes back to japan

will we meet again?
伍佰唱著"你正在失去,你正在失去,你正在失去我"
那也正是你對我唱的嗎?
三個月前的分別,現在才抓到那股離愁
我早已回到現實,而你正在前往現實的途中
不用大動作就能讓人感動
不用大事件依舊讓人細細回味
600元加幣剛剛好再一次體驗大都市的無趣
以及世界上只剩下兩個人的寧靜
i'll be missing that silence and calmness you've given me
沒有機會聽你所謂的故事(亦或是不願提,whatever)
anyways...
穿著寬大足球服的日本女在等著你呢!
"wo shi zi ben guae ji"

amazing two-day vacation

拉丁式的不寫實
目不轉睛加上上揚的嘴角似乎表達了這短暫的美妙的法律漏洞
大孩子買了一個玩具飛機
婉轉的經過思考的對我說是for my partner's son
partner? what kind of?
i'm sorry for his "partner"
不為自己難過 是一件可怕的事
還好是個乖孩子 不安 卻不想理會的乖孩子
還是那句老話 思念是一種 很玄的東西 如影隨形
even oversea
amazing people can give amazing unbelievable kisses
everybody should try that if you are lucky enough

amazing smoking guy

該該該該該該該叫第二波
怎麼可以有人抽起煙好看成這樣
透過視訊陣陣飄上來的矇矓
看的都快窒息了
為了神奇抽煙人耗掉美容覺
one and half kidney,left,會不會因此而不高興又痛了起來
透過他的破英文,美麗的誤會
天曉得,誰在乎
cuggi model別發現就好
別像白擔心大阪女友發現
發現什麼
不過就是一些跟著氣氛走的思緒亂碼
一切都是那麼的不切實際免負責任
abcdefg,空白鍵也算進去
27個鬼玩意ㄦ,睡前還不是很空虛

night...amazing smoking guy