again and again and again and again...

the so-called heartless individual

get amused again, get defenseless again
get a hope again, get a disappointment again
get a conclusion again, get a confusion again
get mad again, get calm again
talking rubbish again, ending in silence again
out of mind a again, come back the extremely weak senses again
online again, offline again
make a decision again, break your own word again
your fault again, my fault again

who is the angel, and who is the devil?
who is talking now?

i'm tired of everything
mostly is myself

累.厭.棄.泣again

ok, when is the next repeat coming?

your life, my life, thier life

慢慢地 我進入了你的生活
但你並不知情
然而 我也不知情
一切都是那麼的下意識

我病了
這股昏沈卻讓我驚醒
我活在你的生活中!!!
你的他們,同時也是我的他們!!!

我幻想著我是你
我幻想著幫你做每個決定
每頓早午晚餐
每個電視節目
每件新衣
每天出門的路線
每天上床的時間
跟每個人打招乎的方式

其實並非如此
我只是熟悉一切罷了
熟悉你的每個決定
熟悉你的每個動作
熟悉你的說話語調

所以我幻想著一切

having somebody else's life might be much easier
i totally agree with you

i'm observing their life every moment
it's my life

shining man is not shining anymore

it's about something you don't get or you can't own

there is no sparkle from your eyes, shining man
there is no freshness on your face, shining man
there is no brilliance in your smile, shining man
even no smile, shining man
no smile? or no smile for me?
not shining? or not shining for me?

shining man is dancing out of my world
i see your shadow but not soul
maybe it's my problem
my eyes, my heart, my world, my carelessness, my sleepiness
then why am i sitting here?

i'm always being honest to myself
but right now, i'm really confused

shining man, will you still be shining when the next time i see you?
take care of yourself, that's the only sentence i can tell you

your unconcern

what am i waiting for?
what am i seeking?
what am i expecting?
不過就是一點文字,遙遠的文字
i'm oversensitive taking them as hints
but they never show up
漫無目的的箭頭在充滿符號的框框內遊走
怎麼也走不出去
只有自己陪著自己自戀下去

藉著別人的情緒,當作自我分隔的藉口
不想提醒自己,更不敢洩漏自己
表‧裡‧不‧一
誰看的出來文字背後的掙扎
文字不就是為了被閱讀
not everyone's words are full of hints
not everyone like u
what are u expecting?

your concern,something i lost,or never got


dear far away,please read my words if you've cared